I feel soo alone and confused. Early 2012, last year, I lost two of my best friends due to an incident. Our group completely split up to the point where we knew nothing of each others' lives anymore. I was left with my bestest friend whom I consider a sister. But after everything that happened I became extremely depressed; started binge eating, and have panic attacks. This all still goes on today. When I found your youtube channel I became soo positive and inspired (: you inspired me to change for good. but lately I'm back to depression. I feel like the few friends that I have left are extremely drifting apart. They say that I've changed - and I have - but I feel better. But they don't like the change. And I do change a lot every year but I'm just trying to find my peace. I'm afraid that they'll completely forget me. any advice ?
This is something that absolutely everyone goes through. Everyone. People lose friends everyday and although it may be hard, you cant revolve your life around them . Nor can you depend your happiness on friends that will come and go. Make new friends that accept you for the you in which you changed. Growing up goes hand in hand with losing things that you care about. We make decisions every day that effect our future...whether it be short term or long term. I know how hard it is to lose friends but once you start changing, some friends might not stick around. When high school is over, you really have to think. How many of these people will I actually still care about? You could try talking to your friends and try rebuilding your relationship with your friends. But you may not get the outcome you had hoped for. Just know that you need to accept that your lives weren't meant to cross paths anymore. Everything happens for a reason. I'm sure new friends an opportunities will come your way. Just accept that. Don't turn to self destruction because your'e losing grip on what you know to be your comfort zone.